Gendis and her addiction

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“Beneran, dikelilingi sepi itu candu! Coba!”
for Gendis exhibition, 2013
Mixed media on paper

At first when I was working on Gendis exhibition back on July – August 2013 this artwork is one of my non-favourite. I didn’t like the vibe but decided to exhibit it anyway (because I like that she’s doing the knitting thing in this drawing, ah, woman).

Yesterday when I go through Gendis exhibition folder for a press request, I suddenly stopped longer on this one and my heart scream “OMG, I love it!” I love it even more than my first favourite from Gendis series.

Life and the constant change. According to the changing love and favourite, I believe something has changed inside me between July 2013 – January 2014. The drawing’s vibe which I used to “not-really-like-it-but-whatever” surprisingly become my favourite. It touches me in a unexplainable way. Maybe, maybe I become the solitude junkie as her (according to the artwork title) or maybe I just admire her comfortable-happy face surrounded only by silence and yarn? I don’t really know.

But as I always said to myself, “never fight the change inside yourself, because it’s always for the better. Embrace it.”

Photo: Dito Yuwono | Who will open his solo show “The Memories of Unidentified Experience” tomorrow 10 Jan 2014 at Kedai Kebun, Yogyakarta. From what I heard it’s gonna be a beautiful show.

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menggambar #menuju(h)

7 hari. 7 penulis. 14 cerita. dan 14 ilustrasi yang menemani.

Menurut gue, humor adalah kunci untuk memikat hati seorang perempuan. Sementara, menurut orang-orang semua cowok humoris itu mirip Tukul. Baiklah.

Gue merasa belum pernah bertemu dengan cewek yang bagian tubuhnya gue suka lebih dari satu. Nggak mungkin juga cewek-cewek itu gue pacarin semuanya, kan? Poligami aja maksimal empat.

Hujan seperti lelaki. Selalu menjagaku.

Schizophrenia.

Aku ingin membunuh hujan… aku ingin hujan mati.

The best comedy comes within series of tragedy.

Kami mengagumi satu sama lain dengan alasan yang aneh, bahwa kami terlalu berbeda.

Kenapa aku tidak pakai celana dalam?! Aku bahkan tidak punya nyali untuk melihat vaginaku sendiri!

Mereka tidak ragu mengumbar nomor telepon, bahkan silsilah keluarga di profil jejaring pertemanan. Malah mereka juga tidak segan membocorkan rute aktivitas sehari-hari, tempat makan favorit, sampai pamer foto baju yang sedang dipakai.

Namun, teladan itu bukan tokoh politik yang bergelimang uang, bukan selebriti yang berhiaskan gemerlap dunia glamor.

Lollipop moment adalah sebuah istilah sederhana tentang life-changing incident yang dipopulerkan oleh motivator asal Kanada, Drew Dudley.

Cakrawala memerah. Langit di atasnya bernuansa ungu-biru-merah muda. Air laut yang berkilau memantulkan semua warna  di atasnya. Sabtu terkesima. Sebagai hari, ia tak pernah punya waktu untuk mengamati momen-momen seperti itu.

Aku adalah bayang-bayang. Sepanjang waktu aku bersembunyi di balik kenaifan benda-benda untuk membunuh cahaya. Dan sepanjang waktu, aku memanfaatkan luka-luka cahaya untuk menghantui benda-benda.

Seminggu sekali bertukar e-mail, sebulan sekali bertukar surat yang dikirim dengan prangko. Siapa sangka, berkorespondensi seperti ini begitu menimbulkan adiksi.

Lalu, aku terbawa perasaan. Lalu, semua menjadi rumit.

Ketika 7 penulis muda berbakat dari Bandung sepakat untuk menulis tentang 7 hari dan mengajak saya untuk menerjemahkan 14 tulisan mereka ke dalam 14 ilustrasi tentu saja saya mengatakan “iya” tanpa berpikir lama.

Menuju(h)
Hari-hari yang bercerita

Aan Syafrani
Iru Irawan
Mahir Pradana
Maradilla Syachridar
Sundea
Theoresia Rumthe
Valiant Budi

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us. five years from now.

there is no us anymore. night, double bed, you and me accompany each other.

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A late night sketch after hypnotized by Irving Penn photos.

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hening adalah rumah

Rumah adalah sendirian untuk berkutat dengan pikiran kita sendiri.

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hand & brain stretching

Love is not something you’ve to pursuit. It just happen.

“Believe me everyone’s life is as boring as yours, so chill!”
Kutu-an

tek-kotek anak ayam berkotek
Peanut butter jar for my brush cleaner (on the top-right)
Pencil case: A souvenir from Artjog 2012 illustrated by Wedhar Riyadi and all my dearest pens and pencils.
My cliche obsession (the woman not the man [?])
  • Pouring all the thoughts fearlessly (on paper)
  • Eat like a pig – taco + taco, nasi goreng ijo, green tea cake, etc.
  • Commission works
  • Bryan Boy and Garance Dore on Pardon my French.
  • Being a cliche (look at previous point)
  • Being alone
  • Alone

Have to be done soon to do list:

  • Finished 5 give away drawings for 5 people from here
  • Doing something with this ‘Sometimes I believe six impossible things before breakfast’ thing.
hand & brain stretching

just woke up from a long nap

“Bed for One” | Mixed media on gray paper, 2012

In an empty and messy room. This room used to be my sanctuary, very neat and therapeutic. But yesterday I woke up on a disgusting bed covered with dust and smell like my childhood best friend smelly feet (after his basket routine). It’s all my fault. I have been hearing too many opinions, spend time to focused on something that didn’t really matter for the last 3-4 months (yeah, slow minded) and neglecting things that actually matter. Now I have to wake up also make-up my mind and work again from the beginning. also promise myself to be an opinion-careless bitch

What matters you doesn’t matter, matter to me.
What matters to me doesn’t matter, matter to you.
What matters to you doesn’t matter, matter to them.
What matters to them doesn’t change anything.

Oh, and please do choose wisely for Jakarta. Because it really matter :)

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soulmate (?) | details

Soulmate (?) series
Mixed media on paper (each 20 x 31 cm)

Gendis first time in Yogya, hope she will have the opportunity to visit this city more often. Thankyou IVAA!

soulmate (?) | details